Friday, December 4, 2015

* * * MUSIC VIBES * * *

Listening to music has always been a HUGE part of my life (since I can remember). Nowadays I choose to listen to music that lifts my spirit up and feed my soul with the right words! What you expose yourself to and repeat in your system can have a big impact in your life and how you go through life.  

Everything we put our focus on or get influenced by will be a part of us. That's why I choose to listen to music that builds me up from the inside out and doesn't influence me with things that are not in line with how God sees me & teach me in my every day walk with Jesus Christ.

I hope you'll enjoy the first selection of my favorite top 5 Music Vibes for this month. What's your favorite genre music?

United Pursuit - Let It Happen 

Hillsong (live) - Christ Is Enough

Phil Wickham - Carry My Soul

Housefires II - Come to the River

Giel - My Hope

Thanks for stopping by and reading my blog.

Be good & stay positive

Much love

- Lin -

Saturday, November 21, 2015

* * * The power of Forgiveness * * *

" We have to remember, when we forgive we're not doing it just for the other person, we're doing it for our own good. When we hold on to unforgiveness and we live with grudges in our hearts, all we're doing is building walls of separation. " Joel Osteen

" Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that. " Martin Luther King Jr.

" The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong. " Mahatma Gandhi

" We think that forgiveness is weakness, but it's absolutely not; it takes a very strong person to forgive. " T.D Jakes

" To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you. " Lewis B. Smedes

Never give your power away!

Thanks for stopping by and reading my blog.

Be good & stay positive

Much love

- Lin - 

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

* * * FREEDOM * * *

Are we truly "free" in this era of life? Free to speak or to just be ourselves? Or do we need permission - Permission  to act or do the things that fits in society's mold or what someone else says or think that we should do? I used to think that I was living a life free from bondage. I didn't  really  realize that that wasn't the case for me, until I got confronted with some (old) personal issues. It is not easy (for nobody) to look inside your mind & heart and "see" for yourself if you're truly living a free life.

For me, REAL FREEDOM starts inside our head. If you let fear or doubt rule over your mind and thoughts constantly or worry all the time what  people  might think of you, then tell me are we completely free in this era of life? Unconsciously you can be living a life in bondage and miss out on great opportunities just because  you are afraid to speak up, think different or simply to be rejected?

All the great thinkers and doers (now and before our time) weren't the typical average person. They  had something  in common (my personal point of view) - They stood up for what they believe(d) in and the ones who aren't around us anymore, have left a mark in this world to  help (a) next generation(s).

What are you doing with the freedom that has been given to you in this era of our lives?

Thanks for stopping by and reading my blog.

Be good &  stay  positive 

Much  love 

- Lin -

Thursday, July 2, 2015

* * * Single, Not Dating & Celibacy * * *

 " Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own. " 1 Cor. 6:19 (from the New International Version)

As a born again "virgin" , I've learned and experienced a few things along the way. Number 1 it's NOT easy to break old habits. I was having a hard time detaching myself from my personal unhealthy habits (insecurities, looking for approval) and the "wordly" wisdom I grew up with (advice in magazines) Don't get me wrong, some of the advice was useful but as a person that was heartbroken I couldn't trust and rely on myself anymore.

So the journey of my celibacy started right after I got saved in January 2013. Because I didn't trust myself I decided not to date either in that same year (and I am still not dating). It wasn't difficult because I was in a new relationship with GOD and getting to know Him better (including jesus and the holy spirit) and after He revealed my life purpose, my attention wasn't so much with dating anymore. Of course I got approched by a few guys but I really need(ed) Jesus to act "wisely" when I was around them. I've experienced the "hard" way that there was no point in trying to prove that I could handle any temptation that was "presented" to me. Uhm like no way! Now I also understand better why God says in the bible "flee from temptation - Don' t fight it" . That was definitely a learning moment for me. If you are wondering what I did...... I kissed a guy. Maybe not that much of a big deal you may think but I know for certain you will agree with me that it all starts with something innocent and before you know it it's already too late. I know, I know everyone is different and some may not feel the adrenaline after kissing but for me personally it's a no go. Because a passionate kiss is my weakpoint and that's why (after that experience - and from the past) I've told GOD that I want to save my "first" kiss for my future husband. 

In the past I never really took the time to bond with someone on a emotional level. I always "thought" that it was normal to give myself (body) to someone.  That was my way of expresssing my love to the person I was in a relationship with. But actually the opposite happend. Because deep down inside it didn't feel like it was true love. Sometimes I would feel ashamed or not worthy. Even though I was in relationships, deep down inside it felt wrong and I didn't like the feeling. (I never gave all of me to the person - my soul - my vulnerable side & trusting that person completely)

Looking back in my youth I really never had a "rolemodel"  or someone who could teach and explain to me why it is important not to be intimate with someone you actually don't really now (doesn't matter how long you're in a relationship with that person - if sex is the first bond you made, it will dominate and control over your relationship - I've experienced it myself

This may sound weird what I am about to say but actually I am happy that I went through what I went through because I've learned and experienced personally, why it's so important to cherish your body and don't give away your virginity. I was thinking about it today and I respect myself so much more and I don't want to just have sex with someone (dating or not) just to "keep" the person or relationship going or get approval for my outer beauty. I also used to do it just to forget my unhappy moment(s).

Ladies (and this is for you too guys) don't just give your body away just because you "think" that the person you are in a relationship with might be the "one". If that's the right person he or she will respect your choice for not having sex untill you are ready. And if I may add after you get married. This is also an important note because I never realized how important it is to wait with having sex untill you get married. I've never realized it but having sex with so many different persons can have a BIG impact on your soul and heart. No human being can take this lighty. Yes it's your body but no one wants to end up hurt, feeling ashamed, confused, used, unworthy. Our body is meant to be for one person (next to the holy spirit living in us - as a born again christian). That person who has the grace, love and kindness you are looking for. That person that was put on this planet to stand by your side and help you fulfill your Godly purpose. Marriage is not just for fun and enjoying each other companies and just "living life". Yes of course we can enjoy life and create our personal and happy moments but we mustn't forget that in our marriage Jesus Christ is our foundation & our purpose to help and serve others. 

I'll be honest. It can get lonely sometimes . One time I explained to a guy why I wanted to wait with kissing and having sex, untill I was married. He said that it's not possible anymore to do that in today's society (well I can't argue with that because almost everywhere you turn to it has something to do with "sex") and that I wouldn't make it. I can't remember what I said exactly but I am so happy he "challenged" me by saying that to me because I am not doing this anymore to please someone (with my body) but knowing my self worth and treating myself with the respect I didn't had before 2013. 

If I could say this to my teenage self I would say: hold on to your values (not having sex and waiting for the right person that has the divine connection with you). Don't let society or anyone talk you into saying that it is okay to have sex and that it's normal. It's not! It's not worth the heartbreak, it's not worth the empty feeling sometimes, it's not worth you feeling lost and unconsciously doing something someone "convinced" you to do.

Finally my thoughts about dating. As I mentioned before I am not dating and I don't want to either because I am keeping my focus on Jesus Christ and also pursuing my Godly Dreams and Goals - check out what I am up to >>> Create A Colorful Life  When I stay occuppied I don't feel lonely or left out because I know that in the right time God will send the right person on my path. If you think it through for a second, dating can actually be a "distraction" and keeping you away to focus on building your relationship with Jesus and the Holy Spirit (God's spirit). Wouldn't you just spend more time with our Heavenly Father to find out and discover how He sees you, reveal to you what your Godly purpose is, renew your mind (soul), take away old habits that are not in line with His word (bible) and replace them with the pure and Godly values that were already deep down inside of you? 

Being celibate for 2 years and almost 6 months now, I've experienced that my previous way of thinking (my uncertainty, unworthy feeling) is completely gone! I am beginning to see myself the way God has always seen me ~ my worth in Jesus, self love, my true identity, inner beauty, fearless, strong, unique ~ I don't have to compete anymore or get approved by using my body as a "tool", to let the other person "see" what I am worth. It's already inside of me (has always been) and the right person will recognize this as well!

How will I know if I've met the "right" person? I'll just know it when I'll know it. Of course I will ask him a lot of questions (does he believe in Jesus, how is his relationship with Jesus and the Holy Spirit, do we share the same values, what are his goals for the next five years and so on) but it's also important how your spirit reacts to the person (divine connection between the both of you). But with everything you do it's major important to involve the Holy spirit in every step. Because if our mindset is not in line with GOD (bible - how he sees us) then we can make decision based on our own thoughts and feelings (soul & heart) . That's why it's so important to always be led by the holy spirit and keep Jesus at the center of our lives. Without Him we are going to live and think on a worldy level or our own way of thinking and acting on it eventually. Our "flesh" will never be satisfied! No matter how great or kind you are, we all have faults and sometimes we can "break" down or feel a little bit empty even though we have the best support we can wish for. But when we always first go to Jesus Christ, He can give us what we need and long for and that no human being (not even your children) can satisfy you with. Well to be honest I prefer "resting" in His presence and learning what He is showing and learning me on how to be a better person and treat myself and my other half with the kindness and love Jesus treates me with everyday!

I am a much happier person now and I am proud of myself. But I couldn't have done this without the strength and love of Jesus and the Holy Spirit! Living a Pure Lifestyle is not (always) easy. Especially when we are living in a world where temptation can be just around the corner (general and personal weakness of every person). We have our own will to make a decision but if we know deep down inside that something isn't right, we should not follow our "feelings" just to get satisfied. Every choice we make has consequences - whether it's a good one or bad one in your opinion - the results will come after you've made the decision. 

The Holy spirit never forces me to do something. He brings the situation to my attention and tries to warn me about it. If I still don't "listen", He will lead me gently away from the situation (a closed door, or no respond from the person) and afterwards I'll realize (I will get a clear understanding) what He was trying to prevent me from. So when somethings happen and you don't understand why it isn't working? Don't force it and be thankfull that God pulled you away or prevented you from that situation.

This year I've realized more then ever that this life here on earth is just temporary and all the materialistic things will be gone one day! When we leave this planet we will have Eternal Life (only Jesus Christ is the doorway to heaven). What do you value more? A temporarly life on earth? Or pursuing the Dreams and Goals GOD has put in your spirit (in your single season or your marriage).

Let's choose wisely each single day when we wake up and live or life here on this planet.

Thank you for stopping by and reading my blog

Be good & stay positive

Much love

- Lin - 

Thursday, May 28, 2015

* * * There is a Time and a Season for Everything * * *

"It may be a Time of new Beginnings, a time of Growth, a time of reaping the Harvest of Hard work, or a time of Rest. Trust this beautiful order. Everything in its time". - Anonymous

As I mentioned in my blogpost >> What do YOU do when your Plan is postponed, last year I was in a season of rest and healing. The emotional pain I went through before I gave my heart to jesus had to be recovered and healing had to take place. I now understand better that GOD know's best what we need during every season we are in.

New Beginnings
I' ve also learned in my walk with Him that He works with a system. After I got saved I was in a season of new beginnings. Everything was new for me and I hadn't touched a bible since I was little. The people around me always talked about GOD but less about Jesus and the Holy Spirit. So I really wanted to know and learn about them and what my relationship is with them next to the Father. I am not gonna lie it was very confusing for me in the beginning, because all of them were also the same person. But I understand and experienced now what their seperate role is. As in the bible and in real life. God is our Creator, Heavenly Father. He is everywhere and through all things. Jesus is the Son of GOD and came to earth as the sacrifice so that we could be reunited with our heavenly Father. He is also our first Love. Because He came down to earth to rescue his bride. That's why He is the only one who can fulfill all of our basic needs and not the things of this world. After He completed his mission for God, He went back to heaven so that the Holy Spirit ( The Helper), who rose him back from the death, would come and dwell in us to help us on the mission God has given us. Because I truly believe that we as christians are on a mission. A mission that GOD has put in our hearts to help others in this world.

Time of Growth
The second season was a time of growth. Growing close and building an intimate relationship with GOD the Father, Jesus His Son and His spirit (the Holy Spirit) who is our Teacher and Helper. Before I could work on the relationship between us I wanted to know their roles in my life otherwise how can I communicate with them? The first year was very confusing for me because I couldn't seperated them and I had to be open to ask for help. But one thing I can assure you GOD is very patient and loving. HE never failed me in anything. When something happend and I didn' t understand it I would be a little bit sceptical and tried to do it my own way. He would give me the space but after a while He would lead me back to the same message. So I had no other option then to follow His instruction. It was hard for me. Because my mind still wanted to do the same "old" habits and I unconsciously depended on my own intelligent. BUT we serve A mighty GOD and sometimes He makes us do things ( through signs or a word from the bible) we don't understand at that moment but afterwards we "see΅ what He was trying to prevent us from and lead us too. If or when you don't know how to hear God's voice clearly? Listen to the calm voice inside ( Holy Spirit) He is not pushy or will force you to do something. In my experiences I also noticed and still do that the Holy Spirit uses words and not whole sentences. For example - wherever I walked or went my eyes would always be drawn by a sign of an administration office. I think you know what I was procrastinating on ;) . And even if I ignored it unconsiously it would still come up in my spirit. He kept on reminding me about this in a calm way. He will help you through impulsive ways but it's very important to move when he is giving these signs. That's why He is here to help. I had to make a decision not to be stubborn anymore and do it in my own thinking and power. Of course it is important to use your brains and not be led by your emotions but what the Holy Spirit is trying to say through your spirit (spiritual intelligence). Building a relationship takes effort and time. But most importantly Trust, Openness and Honesty and that' s what I had to be more last year to Jesus Christ and God. Otherwise how can He help me and take care of me just as he promises in his word ( the bible). I was scared to show my vulnerability but I've learned that He knows me better then anyone does and especially me. Jeremiah 1:5

A Time of Harvest
In my third season it was a time of reaping the harvest of hard work. After a lot of crying and don't understanding how everything was going to work out, I started feeling renewed inside my heart and mind. It's hard to describe but I can only compare it when you are really thirsty and when you drink a glass of refreshing water. Revelation 22: 1-5 , you can feel the water streaming down inside you and you "feel" that your body just needed this. Well that's how my spirit felt after I broke down that high wall, I've build all those years, with the help and power of the Holy Spirit. I followed His instructions and He led me through my fasting periods (to break soul ties and bondage & addictions - Isaiah 58), my deliverance prayer from every occultism and being baptized in water to be reborn again in Christ (the Holy Spirit). All of this happend in the same year (2013) when I gave my heart to Jesus Christ. There were moments I thought I could never do it or overcome some addications that were messing up my life. But greater is HE that is in me then he that is of the world. If you are going through a process like this, DON'T GIVE UP AND LET THE HOLY SPIRIT HELP YOU. He can only do that if you open up to HIM. And it's so worth it because THANKS TO HIS POWER I'VE BEEN SET FREE. All praise and glory to HIM.

A Time of Rest
My last season was a time of rest. This was the hardest part for me because after I got my wake-up call from GOD (the year He saved me),  I couldn't wait to start with the Godly mission He put in my heart in 2013. But GOD just did the opposite in the year after (2014) and kept me away from the world system. I was living on welfare, getting rejected by every job application I applied to. Even jobs that were under qualified for me. At first it bothered me (back in 2012 - same experience with welfare and rejections on job applications) but after my spiritual growth with Jesus Christ these rejections started bothering me less. I knew GOD had a plan for my life and also for this situation. So I kept my spiritual "eyes" and "ears" open to see where He was leading me to with all of this. And the answer came! People who live on welfare have the opportunity to start their own company. I started uhm no I'll be honest I tried to make a clear plan. But you see I like to call myself positive chaotic (taking up too much projects that's impossible to handle at the same time) and so I was having a difficult time trying to finish my business plan. I kept on asking the Holy Spirit for help and guidance but I was looking for a tree instead of a sead. Like I mentioned in my blogpost What do YOU do when your Plan is postponed, I was making plans to go back to my motherland, Suriname. I applied for jobs there, started networking, I signed up my project at a crowdfunding platform that represents Surinam but everthing I tried wasn't working properly and doors didn't open. 

This lasted untill November last year and I decided to start all over again with everthing. Meaning putting aside all of my own plans and having an open and honest conversation with my Heavenly Fahter. So I asked Him where I kept missing the signs and what I was ignoring unconsiously. He "showed" me the answers through His words, previous dreams and visions He gave to me and through a vision He also gave my sister and a dear friend. And it all made sense again! I lost track on the signs He gave me at the beginning of my spiritual growth in Him and I started adding my own goals that I wanted to accomplish last year (starting a project in Surinam) He never gave me a clear direction or conformation that I was ready for Surinam. He put it in my heart yes, but He didn't confirm it to me through a dream or a clear sign. 

Finally I worked hard on my business plan (in January)  to finish it on time. The hardest part was the financial plan so I literally cried out for His help! I had less then a week and this part was holding me back the whole time and on top of that I had to change the text to dutch (I wrote everything in English) Man oh man I can only say that it's because of the Power and Wisdom of the Holy Spirit I could have finished everything on time. In less then 48 hours after I've delivered my business plan, I got a phone call from my coach and he said that my plan got approved. I was so happy and thankfull and of course I did my Holy Spirit Dance Off :) . After this all had sank down into my spirit I started to panic a little bit BUT I had nothing to be worried about actually because If GOD aproved this, I WILL SUCCEED. And that is only because HE is right next to me during every step

I've learned and experienced that when GOD approves something HE will "ask" you (give you signs/opportunties) to react on it immediately but definitely give you the time to work it all out. To give another example - Because things weren't working out with finding a job in Surinam, I wanted to make sure to find a job here in the Netherlands (assuming Surinam wasn't working because of the closed doors) on time before my welfare income ended somewhere in 2015. So I asked around and a good friend of mine told me there was gonna be a job opportunity available at her work. Her reaction came at the same time God has put in my spirit to sign up for the opportunity the welfare gave (starting your own business on welfare). I've noticed and experienced that whenever something like this happens I go for the one that gives me the most fear. If I want to grow and evolve I have to take a leap of faith and trust GOD ALMIGHTY through every opportunity He gives me. At the end of the day WE have the responsibility to react and take hold on to the things HE presents to us. Before I gave my heart to Jesus I always trusted myself and believed that I could make it (my own strength) I was always bold enough to believe that everything was going to work out for my good. Of course I didn't realize (yet) that it was GOD all along who allowed those things to happen. I don't know about you but I had a hard time letting go of every control of my life (it's bought with the priceless blood of jesus now) and give it to our Heavenly Father. I was so used to doing things all by myself that I was struggling to put it all in His hands. Now He is sitting beside me in the "car" and advising (His Spirit - the Holy Spirit) me when to go left, right or straight ahead. The "roadmap" I've created had to be readjusted and in every step I take now, I always look for His signs and react on them. Sometimes it takes a few times to get the clear message what He is trying to tell me but the longer I pratice the better I can sense His presence and what He is trying to show/tell me. And another good comfort is that He already knows the end of our lives here on earth. It's NO coincidence that he is called Alpha & Omega Revelation 22:13

Instead of paying attention to what the Holy Spirit was trying to tell and showing me, I was too "busy" making plans to go to Surinam. When it actually was a season of spiritual healing for me, a season to readjust my roadmap and reset my mind from some old habits I still was holding on to. I learned a lot last year and it's okay to fail sometimes because GOD doesn't expect from us to figure everything out immediately but to "learn" and listen to His voice and the signs He gives through the bible, dreams, etc. Follow Him and not your own way of thinking or the system of the world. He will give you the space to "learn" from that moment but always let you make a U-turn to follow back the path He has already arranged for you.

Building my Faith every day
He knows the beginning and the end of our Lives. Let's trust Him through every season and let Him show us the directions instead of ignoring His signs and mapping everything out on the roadmap we created by ourselves. I've experienced that whenever I make my own plans it will ALWAYS fail. So during every process and season I am starting to trust Him more and more and everytime I do that,  it gives me the stability and reassurance everyone needs in a personal and intimate relationship. When you give it all you are giving Him the opportunity to give you everyting you need. When I ask Him He gives and when He ask me I give. I am still learning to do this with everything in my life. It's not always easy but every day I am giving pieces of my life to my first love Jesus, my King and Savior Revelation 22:17 So I will keep seeking and looking out for Him every day & minute because He is the living water I need every day in my whole life.

Thanks for stopping by and taking the time to read this blog post. I pray that Jesus Christ may lead and guide you through every season you are facing now. When you start trusting Him completely, even when you don't understand it sometimes, He will never fail you. YOU GOT THIS!

Be good & stay positive

Much Love

- Lin -

Pictures were made by my lovely friend @Prague'12 - check her instagram out - Gully68

Friday, April 17, 2015

* * * INTRODUCING Small Talks * * *

So I am going to challenge myself with a new video series. I've been procrastinating on this for over 1 year now. Check out this video to see what I am going to share with you guys. Don't hesitate to leave a comment.

Are you procrastinating on something as well? Join me on this challenge and let's start making changes together! 

Thanks for stopping by and reading my blog

Be good & stay positive

Much Love

- Lin -

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

* * * Meet-up with A Special Friend * * *

At the end of last month I went to Arnhem to visit one of my dear friends. This is her second working trip back to the Netherlands, Germany & Barcelona. She is the most Humble, Hard-working, Dedicated, Family Loving and Cheerful person I have ever met! I am so happy and grateful that God brought us together a few years ago. When I went to visit her she surprised me with two lovely presents. A notebook with an awesome quote from Mark Twain  + a postcard with a lovely text <3

"Das schönste aller Geheimnisse ist: ein Genie zu sein und es als einziger zu wissen" Mark Twain 

A Postcard with the following text - "Find comfort in Simple Things"

The first day we've ever met each other we talked for more then one hour! We have never talked before or got introduced. We stood there in the hallway of the front door and we talked about everything that came up in our minds. She is one of the persons who made me realize that life is too short to waste and she showed me in her behavior that other people opinions shouldn't shape your life. Some said/say to her that she is sassy or a bit arrogant. But I call it Boldness. To Stand-up for yourself, Believe in yourself and most importantly Love yourself just for who you are and following your dreams and goals and not what other people say that you must do. In my "changing directions story part II", I've mentioned her and my other cousin - "Therapy @Louvain year 2011" 

She is also one of the few persons who kept cheering for me when I felt lost and "thought" that I knew what I was doing. She never judged nor discouraged me in anything. Instead she was and still is honest to give me constructive criticism. In our friendship we always give each other our private space, respect each other's different opinions and life decisions. We are the same in our womanhood but also different in our personality. We are unique and therefore it's enough and we don't have to be someone else or wear a fake mask.

We had so little time to catch up but I stayed as long as I could because I still had my train journey back to Rotterdam. We talked and laughed a lot and we also showed our vulnerable side. I think that that's the best side for having friendships you cherish. You can just be YOU and don't have to show how tough you are or compete with each other. Our bond and connection is in the way we see life, our cheerful, loving & goofy personality but also learning and growing every day to be(come) a better version of ourselves. The whole reason about womanhood.


We are not Jealous about each other and what we do in Life
We are here to Support one another
Your Strength is my Strength, my Weakness is your Weakness 
We should build each other up and 
keep on sharing the same energy we all have as human being,
that's called LOVE 
Love that never judge
Love that supports you no matter what happens
Love that encourage you to face your fears and isn't afraid to show vulnerability
But more importantly, Love to just let the other person 
be themselves and pass 
this Beautiful Gift to the next generation of Powerful Women
That's my version of Womanhood...

The hardest thing we all as human being can do is to keep on showing our vulnerable side. Every Single Day! But it's so worth it! Every day I am trying. Some days I fail and some days I succeed, but through those learning moments I can still stay open to be vulnerable and try again. Never stop trying and never get discouraged. And finally don't give everyone permission to your vulnerability. It should be an honor that you share this personal side of you. It should be treated with kindness and respect. Just as you would do to someone else who shows his or hers vulnerable side to you.

Thanks for stopping by and reading my blog

Be good & stay positive

Much Love

- Lin - 

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

* * * Monday Afternoon in Bruges * * *

On Easter Monday  we went for a photowalk in Bruges... We didn't made a lot of pictures. We weren't very inspired because it was raining a lot and my buddy wasn't feeling so well. But as always we enjoyed each other's company and we had lots of L.O.L's <3 

Instagram of my buddy in crime - Gully68

Be good & stay positive

Much Love

- Lin -

Friday, March 20, 2015

* * * WHAT do YOU do when your PLAN is postponed * * *

What do you do when you get inspired by something GOD has put in your heart but things seem to be working slow? Or when "you" decide to take the step of faith to "see" if this is the direction GOD wants to bring you in? Well I've been in that situation last year. 

At the beginning of 2014 I moved back to my mother's place (temporary) because I couldn't find a job and I was living on welfare. It was a new year so I was ready to work out the inspirational ideas GOD (from my vision bords back in 2009 & 2012) has given me. BUT I forgot one important thing. That I needed more time to heal from things that have happened in my past. I got saved and gave my heart to jesus in January 2013 but last year I've learned that every pain has its own healing proces and only GOD knows the healing time. My intentions were good but how can I help someone else if I was still broken in some areas? How can I show others my unconditional love if there were still parts in me that were still led by my flesh (emotions). I was in denial with myself.

Although I needed time to recover from my spiritual wounds, I didn't loose focus on the dream I got from GOD. There were periods where I was so on fire that I was busy until the early hours in the morning. But there were also days and nights where Netflix and Youtube took all of my spare time. And then there were also nights where I cried unto GOD and begged Him to get me out of the situation I was in ( I was longing for my own personal space again). To give you an idea of my personality type - I am an Introvert. I love people but every once in a while I NEED to be ALONE and this is nothing personal. It is just the way that I am wired to go in my quiet inner room and find my peace. When those moments came, I couldn't really retreat myself because my mother's house is very small. So the only way I could do it was when she was in another room or gone. Or another example is putting my headphone on to find some quiet time. There was also a BIGGER challenge! ME. Some moments I would be frustrated or would question and think why GOD would put me in a situation like this. So I would cry about it or keep on stalling things. And then this month HE revealed some of the answers that I couldn't understand last year. And that's been a BIG eye opener for me! 

You see I was making plans to go back and live temporary in Suriname ( my motherland) I even signed my project up on a crowdfunding platform. I would also tell  people about this because I " thought" I was stepping into Faith. And actually I was BUT now I know better and understand why GOD still kept me here. Because I was trying to run away from my healing proces and wanted to start doing the BIG job ( my life purpose) for HIM but it wasn' t the right time yet. I definately believe and know that I have a connection with Suriname and that I have an assignment there as well, but how can someone who still needs healing do a good job over there? I wasn't seeing clearly yet in some areas and I was a little bit disapointed at myself. I was blaming myself for not taking more responsibility. Yes I could have spend my time better and keeping a positive balance between feeding my spiritual being and being besties with my flesh ( if you can't beat them join them right?). But I can't let my flesh be in control because I wasn't sent to earth for distractions ( things I shouldn't give my time and attention to) I am on a mission for GOD and His spirit (The Holy Spirit) needs to be in control. But to make my flesh come in agreement with GOD's  Plan, it needs to know who is in control and that person is Jesus Christ. I am saved because of His blood. Before I was saved I was living in a hell! - I would hide my true feelings behind masks. I would always please others to keep them satisfied. (putting my own needs aside/ my time/ in relationships). I was BROKEN but HE healed me with HIS Blood and his Grace. So I made a promise to myself that I will treat myself with kindness no matter what. If I didn't finish a deadline then I would do it tomorrow.  Every day I am still learning  to talk positive to myself and give myself (flesh) a pat on the back (literally). Because it will never be satisfied and everyday I am learning to see my Inner Self ( the way GOD sees me) in a new way. 

I understand that WE have all been through something or going through it right now. But last year I've learned not to dwell on your feelings. Find out where it's coming from and DO SOMETHING about it. Your life is too precious to "waste" on your Feelings or Mood swings. I've been there and December last year I've decided not to dwell in that place anymore ( it's a everyday challenge but worth the fight!) Because that's where the devil wants us to be and stay so that we forget our Godly Mission. Today I was watching a teaching from Bishop T.D Jakes and my spiritual eyes opened because now I understand what GOD was trying to reveal to me last year. And the following just proves again how real and connected HE is with us. Last night I was reading Genesis chapter 3 and this morning when I was busy with my work-out session I put this sermon on and the bishop was teaching on this exact same bible chapter. These are the links of the Sermons - T.D Jakes Sermon #1 & T.D Jakes Sermon #2. I pray that it may bless you and give you revelation to know how to handle your current situation best.

I have experienced that the more time you spend with GOD, the more HE can DO for and through you. Like I've experienced Him in 2013, I am building up that intimate relationship between us closer and to a next level. Last year I was lacking in some areas, even in my Q-Time with HIM but HE is Gentle and is always waiting for me to come back. Even when I cried those nights HE still was there for me and deep down inside I knew it because I wouldn't be renewed in my mind and spirit if HE wasn't looking after me and taking care of me.

Whatever's holding you to go back to HIM, please put it aside and run to HIM. Don't be or feel ashamed to ask HIM for help. Because HE is waiting on you to come back. It's never too late! So go and spend that Q-time with our Lord Jesus Christ so that HE can help and heal you from whatever you are going through right now and can't do in your own strength. I BELIEVE IN YOU!

Picture was made by my lovely friend - check her instagram out - Gully68

Be good & stay positive

Much Love

- Lin -

Friday, March 13, 2015

* * * Photowalk - ZAANSE SCHANS * * *

My buddy in crime and me went for another photowalk. We visited Zaanse Schans for the very first time. She came with the awesome idea to visit this Beautiful and Peaceful place. 
It was a COLD & WINDY Day but so worth it. 

The picture above was made by my buddy in crime - she makes MIND BLOWING pictures! Check her out @ instagram - gully68The pictures below are made by me ;)

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Be good & stay positive

Much love

- Lin -